I’m hurt and I am auto programming myself to survive this madness. I feel like there is no hope. But if I feel the pain, I am sure I will feel the pleasure. There is a light at the end of this dark tunnel.

People say a lot of things. They say it will pass with time. Like they would know the ultimate truth about the universe. Like they have knowledge about me, that is so obvious for them, and so mysterious for me. Their words are designed to give me some consolation and they helps. Unfortunately only temporarily.

I put these words on the papers and stick the papers around the house. I have a list of my assertive rights in a kitchen and a few quotes on a fridge or bathroom mirror. It’s like learning the language. I will think it, I will see it, I will read it, I will be it.

I enter my bedroom and read the sign. Don’t wait for the changes. Act.

I let this mantra to be an autopilot that leads me to better future.

Good morning and good night.
Stay awesome!

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    1. anjage says: Author

      It is so hard to move on, but than it seems to be an only option now… Thank you for your kind words and your visit! <3

  1. Hope you’re okay lovely 😞 we all go through times like this at some point and it’s always hard but it does get better πŸ’• I know everyone says that but it’s so true! Just focusing on a few small positive things makes such a difference but I know it’s easier said than done 😞 always here if you need to chat! xxx

    1. anjage says: Author

      Oh, Milenka, thank you so, so much for these words! <3 I do try to focus on all the positive things in my life. I listen to birds singing and await new episode of my favorite TV series with thrills… each of these things do help a bit and everyday I feel a bit less sad… πŸ™‚ I know I have to give it some time, so I patiently wait… Hopefully upcoming spring will take all the grey clouds away for good.
      Thank you for your support, I appreciate it big time! See you around! <3 <3 <3

  2. 3C Style says:

    Stay strong. There will be beautiful moments, kind people and joy on your path. Keep writing your emotions. It helps to heal and stay focus on your goals. πŸ™‚

  3. Lux G. says:

    Aw, Anja. I wish I have the perfect words to stop the pain or make it go away for everyone who’s going through something. But I don’t. I can only say that the pain will stay as long as you let it.

    May you find the strength to move one and find that light at the end of the tunnel indeed.

    P.S. You still look fantastic.

    1. anjage says: Author

      Thank you for your words, Lux! I need these positive vibes you send me and they do really work as a charm. πŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’ž I am very determined to set the negativity aside and I strongly believe that before summer comes it all will be gone… Have a lovely day and see you around 🌼🌼🌼

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